And so he reappears-written 9.27

So today is something different. I am so freakin’ irritated. It’s because he’s here. HE is here. I seriosuly don’t know what’s going on. I haven’t seen him since February and that night. But no he had to walk into my psych class today, head held high. He transferred in from the other 101 class. Of course. I swear if I find out he knew I was in this class I’m going to murder him. He is making my brain go at like 180 miles per hour. My head is beating like it only had that night, and I’m scared. This is freaking me out. I knew I would have to see him eventually but I wasn’t thinking it would be any time soon. Seriously this wasn’t supposed to be how it went. I was planning on when I was ready emailing him and asking if he wanted to do something not having him randomly show up in MY psychology class. And then he asks me what I am doing here. Well dumbass this is my school, my favorite teacher, my psych class, and my life….get out of it. I can’t quit looking over at him….gotta go focus on Cindy. I’m really nervous for class to end for fear that he’ll try to talk to me. If he ends up being in any other of my classes I will scream. So I made it out of that class not having to talk to him. I don’t know how I managed. By the time I turned around on the other side of the CC, I could see him, I don’t know wher ehe was going but it wasn’t near me. My heart was pounding out through my ears.I swear seeing him is just freaky. I mean seriously what are the odds that he would take a 101 class much less the one I’m in. I am kinda mad at my mom. Why didn’t she tell me that he was going to stay in portland. I mean seriously. It’s so frustrating. I thought he was off away at Pacific not here. Here isn’t cool for me. I want him away. Far away.