Heart's left bleeding on the floor

So what is this? All I wanted to do was explain to you why I am how I am. BUT NO, instead of saying you understand and are sorry you just say "well i know people that have it worse". I don't care if someone had it worse, i had it as bad as I could take it. "just quit being so depressed" yeah well fuck you, it's not that easy. It's not like I am always depressed it's just that i have my moments when I need someone and I've learned that it's not you. The only way I can describe how I'm feeling is it feels like my heart's been shred to pieces and i'm sitting here on the floor in my own pool of blood and you're just watching as i bleed to death. You don't care that I'm dying. You just care about telling me that, it could be worse. You're right my brother could have just died. He didn't have to just code he could have just flat out died. Would that make you feel better. Would that make the passed 5 years the worse possible. Oh or maybe I coulda gotten pregnant. That's it, what happened in February could have left me pregnant. Would that makes things worse. How about if I would have just died when i tried so many times. Would you even care? Miss me even a little bit? I highly doubt it. I just want you to understand and to tell me it's gonna be alright and to tell me he isn't gonna try to get near me or do anything like in February. Please just tell me you'll protect me but you won't. I know this now. i know that you don't really care. What can I do to make you understand. I DON'T LOVE YOU!!!! There I said it. You've broken my heart that's it. "I only wish my words could convince myself it just wasn't real but that's not the way it feels". Thank God fo Jim Croce