And this is how you respond

So you called me today, you said you got my letter but didn’t have time to talk. I don’t get it. You said, “I’m glad you’ve come to your senses. Lets just let everything that’s happened be behind us.” Okay I can do that. But are you saying this is all my fault? Everything is my fault. You fucked up to ya know. I didn’t mess it up on my own. I just don’t get you. I am just kinda going with the flow, I guess, and not gonna get irritated with you because I don’t wanna remess this up. I want to scream at you. I want to run around crying because my brain's exploding. I want to understand. I am really frustrated that you aren't taking any of this fault on you. Seriously why? Why me? Why can't I just listen to my friends and drop you like a hot rock? Set you down and walk away and leave it there. There have been nights that I have wished that I could just walk away from you forever but it would K-I-L-L me. I cna't lose you. I love you. Damn you, I blame you for this. I honestly do. I hate you for this.