Today was a good day!

Well I guess when you hit rock bottom the only place you have is to go up. Yesterday I hit ultimate defeat. I couldn't get the thumb tacks in the wall, my dogs were eating/unpacking everything, I was feeling alone and in this weird place, and what did I do? I broke down and cried. I wouldn't say that it was one of my proudest moments, no not by far, but being this far away from home is really hard, especially when your family is on vacation without you >.<

Let me tell you though, today was better. I went mattress shopping with my new roommate. Now this may not sound fun to some of you but let me tell you: IT WAS AWESOME!


 
This was us....


Though it felt a little like this at moments....

There were some mattresses that were GREAT and felt like clouds, while others that felt like sleeping on the ground (though better then the concrete I currently feel like I'm living on).

We got lunch, did more mattress shopping. It was an overall really good time. It was the first time since moving here that I felt that maybe it'll be okay. We even did some normal shopping in there and boy did I find a few cute tops. It was genuinely fun. There were moments that I felt a little like I was cheating on my friends back in Portland, but I know (or at least hope) that they would want me to be having fun.

Tonight, now that was entertaining, I went over to a friend of the roommates house for her boyfriends birthday party. All you know that I am a bit of  social butterfly. HOWEVER, this is only true when I know people and seeing how I only knew my roommate I was WAY out of my element. I was TERRIFIED and was WAY overwhelmed (which she sensed).

How could you not sense it when I looked like this...

It was a really good time though. After I was able to settle in a little (which did take Cards Against Humanity) it was better and I felt like maybe I could have a few friends here. I am not fully ready to say that I want to stay, but I am not quite as afraid of being stuck here anymore.