Sunday 9/24/2006

God damn! Where is my boy today? I miss him and so badly need a hug. It's ridiculous. This week has jus tbeen so hard. I've just felt as though I wanted to curl up and die due to dehydrationthrough excessive tears. I know this is something I have stated many times throughout this week. I just don't know what to say. I'm just so afraid of losing myself. I've been able to "find" myself before, but i just don't know if I can do it again. I can only rebuil myself so many times before I just stay a crumbled mess on the floor of your garage. No one would guess that me, the together and supportive friend, could be so afraid, scattered and disfunctional. God Damn this life. Maybe it can help my get my crap in order